Day one

So...day one...where to start. This year has been a momentous one. I have finally let the wall down that was erected by the death of my spouse. This year marked the five year anniversary. I must say it has been an interesting year. Much has been done in the changing of my way of dealing with life. Where I was once a repressed people-pleaser and I am now a more outspoken and honest person than I have ever been. One friend has commented that I am a whole lot easier to be around so I guess it has been somewhat of a success. And on the subject of friends....I don't know how I would have got through this year of truth and honesty without them. They have given me the confidence to make a change, such as it has been. And I am ready to forage on in the world of change...I think. This will be another telling endeavor as to whether I have the gumption to actually look inside myself and see the ugly that is hanging out there. As I said, this is where I will try to clear my head and see my progress...you have to have a sounding board somewhere and I have chosen here. We'll see what happens.